Thursday, January 31, 2013

I choose

Saturday, January 19, 2013

Saturday Happy Song - Beats Antique "Revival"

One of my favorite bands of all time. One of my favorite dancers of all time. One of my favorite videos of all time. Be sure to watch this all the way through if you haven't before. It's magical. :)


Friday, January 18, 2013

Friday Favorites

 
that photo above. I Love Lucy has always been one of my very favorite shows. I LOVE the look on Lucy's face in the above photo. Click the photo link. It's an amazing tumblr dedicated to everyone's favorite redhead.  

It's almost Girl Scout Cookie time! YAY! all the cooking/baking blogs I follow are all raving about the new Mango sandwich cookie debuting this year. Did you know that girl scouts used to bake the cookies themselves and they cost about 35 cents a dozen? I found this little history article really fun to read!

Still sober for January, and I actually feel and look better if I do say so myself. However I couldn't help but be intrigued by the fact that Starbucks has introduced "Starbucks Evenings" and is NOW SERVING WINE!! In select locations. But did you hear me? WINE AT STARBUCKS PEOPLE!

I LOVE marmalade, I love grapefruit. THIS grapefruit jam looks like an amazing combo of the 2. 

THIS photo shoot. I love it. I hate it. It makes me wonder why I question my art so often....

In addition to being sober for January, I was also trying to go sugar free...well that feel through the crapshoot. But I found THIS RECIPE and blog post about gals that are sugar free for January very inspiring.

HEARTS!!
We needed bigger hearts!! 

Have a great weekend!  

Thursday, January 17, 2013

ch-ch-changes

I just went and edited my "about me" user profile.

I can't believe I used to be such a happy person that I asked people to join me while tripping the light fantastic. I mean, that was mostly tongue in cheek and very sarcastic and a reference to something my mother said long ago. But, I still can't get over how...completely immersed I was in happiness and positive thinking.  I faked it really hard for a long time in order to change myself into an actual happy person.

It really worked.

Till the world killed it.

Also, I have no idea how I removed my profile picture, but I somehow did. Oops. 


Wednesday, January 16, 2013

Throw a little glitter on it

  
"It doesn't matter what you look like! I mean if you have a hunchback, just throw a little glitter on it, honey, and go dancing."  ~James St. James

Tuesday, January 15, 2013

I approve of myself

Hi.
Happy Tuesday.

I think...and I don't want to jinx it here...but I think I am actually recovered from all of my various illness'. It's only day 2, but I think I might be ok now. *fingers crossed*

Anyhow, I am grateful that this happened at the start of the week and that I can try to make the most of it from the start. Yesterday was pretty well rounded, I got some exercise by doing half my usual walk ( I was still not ready for Bootcamp Mondays yet, I am planning it for next Monday by hopefully building toward it this week), I ate well, pretty well, I slipped when I got home...I was able to concentrate better at work and I went home and was able to concentrate on playing Ukelele and  reading! I went back to Louise L. Hay's You Can Heal Your Life as I abandoned it when I got sick last month and couldn't focus. The exercise was very interesting and I have put it into practice today and would like to share it with you:

Exercise: I Approve of Myself
I have given this exercise to hundreds of people, and the results are phenomenal. For the next month, say over and over, “I APPROVE OF MYSELF.”
Do this three or four hundred times a day, at least. No, it’s not too many times. When you are worrying, you go over your problem at least that many times. Let, “I approve of myself” become a walking mantra, something you just say over and over to yourself, almost nonstop.
It is a guaranteed way to bring up everything buried in your consciousness that is in opposition.
When negative thoughts come up, such as, “How can I approve of myself when I am fat?” or “It’s silly to think this can do any good,” or “I am no good,” or whatever your negative babble will be, this is the time to take mental control. Give these thoughts no importance. Just see them for what they are—another way to keep you stuck in the past. Gently say to these thoughts, “I let you go; I approve of myself.”
Thoughts have no power over us unless we give in to them. Thoughts are only words strung together. They have no meaning whatsoever. Only we give meaning to them. Let us choose to think thoughts that nourish and support us.
Excerpt from You Can Heal Your Life by Louise Hay. © 1984, Hay House.
 (source)

Sunday, January 13, 2013

Vote on what kind of stuff you read!

Vote on what kind of crap I should post about! For fun. Cause I'm bored. Poll is on the sidebar of the blog. On the right. See it? No, no, upper right.
Yeah, there ya go. ;)

Friday, January 11, 2013

Weekly Favorites


  Thank the goddess for Tina Fey
  
I am not a huge fan of Christmas and the season that just thankfully ended, but I LOVE Valentines Day and all it's cute heart shaped bullshit. SWOON!

I'm not drinking this month to do a sort of half-assed detox, so naturally I'm starting to miss my dear friend booze. One of my favorite cocktails is a greyhound. Look at these yummy greyhound jello shots I found while daydreaming. 

I need a good camera bag. I guess I should concentrate on getting the camera out a little more often to earn it first...

Just watched Trailer Park Boys "Say Goodnight to the Bad Guys" last night. Hilarious. The Man ran it back at Mia's urging cause I missed Mr. Lahey penis shot when I walked out of the room. Shocking.

David Bowie has a new song and may be touring!!

Hang out with the like minded

Friday finally

Made it.
It's Friday.

First 5 day work week in weeks and I made it.

Thank the heavens. I am grateful. I am feeling better than I have since December 8th and have hope that this weekend will be productive. I have a bunch of cleaning to do. The Christmas tree is still in the living room. Dying a little more each day and it’s really got to go. I haven’t meditated since last weekend and I want to do some yoga and some dance practice. I have however practiced ukulele 2 nights in a row and was brave enough to show my amazing musician friend Mia how far I’ve gotten in “Sea of Love” when she came over for dinner last night. Which also indicates I’ve felt well enough to have a friend over for dinner, so, that was a win as well. The Man has a 7 pound ham that he and Pink are not gonna be able to finish, so he’s having people over to help him. I really like this idea, of impromptu dinner parties focused around destruction of ham before it spoils. Though from what I understand it doesn’t spoil since it’s cured. I really have no idea. I’ve been vegetarian since I was 6 years old, and while I’ve had several moments of wanting or trying or wishing to just join the masses in their carnivorous ways, at this point I don’t feel the need. 

There is also hiking on the menu for the weekend. I look forward to this as well, because I look forward to feeling better about the human form I exist in. Cutting out the sugar and not eating anything else after 9pm has helped to flatten out my belly this week, so, that’s nice. 

I’ve learned, in many very painful examples, never to let my guard down, never to pat myself on the back, never to sigh with relief. But, still, I am so glad I feel a little closer to physically normal than I have in a month.
I’ll go back to posting pretty pictures with quotes under them now for your viewing pleasure.


Tuesday, January 8, 2013

Drained

Tired today.
Drained.

I don't want to sit here in cubical nation and try to concentrate on business, but I've taken too many sick days lately, and it's only the 8th day of the year...I need to save some in case I get sick again this year. Though, I really, really hope that doesn't happen. Back to back illness in under a month, I pray I'm done for 2013. I really want to spend the rest of this year making myself strong and determined. I was already so tired of feeling lost, weak and emotional. To add physically ill to the mix for the last month has kicked me in the butt. It sucks. I want to be done.

I'd like to save those remaining sick days for playing hooky. Long mornings spent laying in bed with the man I love. Having sex and then lazily wandering to the living room to drink coffee and smoke. Putting gas in the truck and driving up the coast to listen to the waves hit the shore and sip spiked lemonade under the sun...

Other days. Different days. Future days.

Not today.

Monday, January 7, 2013

New post about no new posts

Nothing this weekend. No happy song or rant or rave.
It was a really low-key weekend.
I've been sick. Still am. Got sick after my first Bootcamp class way back on December 10th and have pretty much been sick since. There was a small reprieve where I thought I might be better, then woke up sick Jan. 2nd. It's a huge bummer. Bootcamp resumes today and I won't be going due to still not being entirely well. I don't want to push it and end up sicker, or all over again. It's an awful flu/sick with fever and sweats and headache and runny nose and cough and dizziness. I've spent 3 days out of the office on it. I can't afford more. I just got my vacation days at work, but the sick days come in in October, and I don't want to use up more this early in the year. So, I am just going to sit at my desk and be a fat lump of a human and feel my tight blouse and tight slacks suffocate me.

There were wins to the weekend. I did meditate BOTH days and last night got The Man to sit don and try it for 8 and a half minutes with me! YEAH!! Fucking SCORE! I realize that I haven't explained how huge this is previously, but it is a really big deal to me that he even gave it a try and he also said he would be willing to try it again. It made me really happy.

Other win was finally deciding to start using Proactive for my hurting, gross, acne covered skin, it's day 3 and it does actually look better. I'm not getting my hopes up, as I know I should never do that, but it does look better already.

3rd win was went to the Fantastic Sam's across the street from my place and got my hair cut. This place had horrible reviews and I was really skeptical when I walked into a room of woman eating and talking in the back and not being greeted or really consulted about my hair.  But, it turned out really nice! I love the way it looks now!

I also had a lovely visit with my older sister for my birthday and received some birthday money from her which will pay for a massage I am in desperate need of this coming weekend and will help pay for the dye job on my hair. :)


So, despite being sick and fat, life's not all bad.