Thursday, July 31, 2014
Updates
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I guess I kinda lied about posting here more often. Oh wellllllllll.....
Work has been insane. I am learning a new job and trying to finish mine. My younger sister's life fell apart and she is staying with me for a few days...the SD has been at her mom's and doesn't know of any of this yet and her dad is worried about it upsetting her so much she decides to leave. My older sister was the catalyst for all this drama and now doesn't want anything to do with any of us, and, me? I am just trying to stay that little bit of sane I have left and keep the peace.
It's nice I have detached enough that I am able to keep on keeping on, but, I still need my younger sister to be ok. I won't be ok if she is not ok...Seriously, on all fronts I am doing the best I can with what I have. I really am. Just knowing that, I feel better. I used to feel so bad that I couldn't just "Fix" everyone and everything all the time. I have, through therapy, or meditation, or whatever, been able to let most of that go. People can think for themselves, few of them are actually interested in your advice and even fewer are going to actually take it. So, you have to let go in the most loving way possible. You have to ask them what it is that they need from you, and if that is something you are able to provide do so with love and send them on their way.
About 2 weeks ago, due to an argument with my partner I went all full immersion positivity again. It was of course fake and hard at first, but you really have to force it. Force the positive view of everything at first, and then you start to really see the positive in each situation.
Now, to jump back into that fire..
~Syd
I guess I kinda lied about posting here more often. Oh wellllllllll.....
Work has been insane. I am learning a new job and trying to finish mine. My younger sister's life fell apart and she is staying with me for a few days...the SD has been at her mom's and doesn't know of any of this yet and her dad is worried about it upsetting her so much she decides to leave. My older sister was the catalyst for all this drama and now doesn't want anything to do with any of us, and, me? I am just trying to stay that little bit of sane I have left and keep the peace.
It's nice I have detached enough that I am able to keep on keeping on, but, I still need my younger sister to be ok. I won't be ok if she is not ok...Seriously, on all fronts I am doing the best I can with what I have. I really am. Just knowing that, I feel better. I used to feel so bad that I couldn't just "Fix" everyone and everything all the time. I have, through therapy, or meditation, or whatever, been able to let most of that go. People can think for themselves, few of them are actually interested in your advice and even fewer are going to actually take it. So, you have to let go in the most loving way possible. You have to ask them what it is that they need from you, and if that is something you are able to provide do so with love and send them on their way.
About 2 weeks ago, due to an argument with my partner I went all full immersion positivity again. It was of course fake and hard at first, but you really have to force it. Force the positive view of everything at first, and then you start to really see the positive in each situation.
Now, to jump back into that fire..
~Syd
Saturday, July 12, 2014
Wednesday, July 9, 2014
Currently watching:
With wine...and chocolate covered marshmallows...I am totally obsessed with this story right now.
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