Ok, in a panicked moment I was calculating a gross income and a net income and got confused.
I'miss coming out about even...

So, now that I have adjusted (down) my health insurance and what I am contributing to my 401K, I actually make over a grand less PER MONTH at this job than I did at the last one.

I am so beyond fucked you guys. 

I have to stay off Facebook. God help me some of the people I know are huge fucking idiots. All the conservative crazies are on one friend list, and for awhile I thought it was amusing to check in, but, it's just depressing now...
And besides, I was given another show to oversee at work and I'm confused and fucking up all the time, so I should focus on that...social media is a good escape from all my actual worries and feelings, so I like it, but I think it might be helping my depression along. I have to go back to really trying for healthy habits and not just eating sugar all the time and hating myself. ..but it's been hard. 

"We're born alone, we live alone, we die alone. Only through our love and friendship can we create the illusion for the moment that we're not alone." 

~Orson Welles

Saturday Happy Song - Sum 41 - Fatlip

Those times you work with a bunch of crazy bitches and want to jump in front of a train...

Saturday Happy Song - Primus - Greet The Sacred Cow

check out loveboatinsanity!

Also, link to the original Satanic Toast video because it's too damn funny not to watch over and over.

Screw the roses. I got Mexican food for Valentine's day, cause he knows the real way to my heart.

 ♥

“Everyone needs fudge, Hildy. It's how God helps us cope.”
― Joan Bauer, Peeled

Shout out to @novimnet for her amazing Valentine’s day gift! I was laying on the couch sick and feeling sorry for myself when it arrived this weekend. You made my whole month!

Photo update - January 2017

So, last month in photos:

Although we were supposed to go to a friend's house for New Years Eve, I was there the night before to decorate, had a fight with my boyfriend, and was a little um...depressed about my birthday and getting older than I'd like to be for where I am in life. So, we stayed in. I flaked on my friend, and she had been so good to me, and bought me nice gifts and a cake, and I just couldn't get myself out the door. I realized that the entire 10 years me and Mr. So and So have been together we have never stayed home for New Years Eve. Never. It was wonderful, it was mellow, it got hot and steamy. And the best part? I have never run in the New Year at midnight with my Pink!! SO here is the first picture of 2017 with the love of my life, Pink (The Cat):

 So glad this champagne is actually tasty cause I bought it totally for the label:

 

Waiting for Steve so we can go to the beach cause that's what I wanted to do for my birthday:

I just wanted to be out in nature of some kind. We ended up at Topanga State Beach:

Sunset on the first day of 2017:

Cool underground bridge deal:

Pretty flowers my friend Mia gave me for my birthday:

 A couple days later the lily bloomed. I love lilies:

I made vegetarian chili fries;

  This is where I work now/ I sit on the left, and the crazy girl that sometimes doesn't talk to me sits on the right;

January birthdays at work, and though I didn't want to tell them it was my birthday, I did want a cupcake:

Saturday Happy Song - DeVotchka - Curse Your Little Heart

How come it seems like everyone on Facebook posts about trump or animal abuse?
I can't do it anymore.

 

http://thatnightmare-syd.tumblr.com/post/149577503332/fattiesdelight-smores-pudding

 

Saturday Happy Song - Maximo Park - Apply Some Pressure