Work that into the ground

"You cannot be peaceful and at the same time blame others." -From the Don't Sweat the Small Stuff Calander


Still trying to keep my chin up. Is it in the air? Can you see it there? Is it covered in hair?...Hair? What? No!

The above is so true, but that is not what disrupts my peace. It is the opposite actually, I blame myself for everything. I feel like everything is my fault, like I have messed up so much. Of course it doesn't help that there are a few people that confirm this for me...and then there is guilt that they are right, and then I get depressed, then I mope around. Nothing gets done and then I feel guilty, the cycle repeats itself over and over.

I have to figure out how to end this. I need a fucking whole life makeover. To do that, I feel like I need 24 more hours in every day. I only get so much reading done on the subject, and not all of it is then put to use. So forgive me dear readers, as I embark on a whole other side project to the side projects in my life. I am gonna be here to update you on my progress, hopefully as soon as tomorrow.

~Sydney

Friday Favorites

Hello again my lovelies!

Well, I have been gone for a bit; did you miss me?
There was a really big project I needed to focus on, and I did that. I needed to work on a bunch of other stuff too, and the time got away from me. Then the project got put on hold by it most important player (my father) and then The Man and I had a big, nasty, draining fight...and it has taken me this long to get my chin back up. I have been feeling really down for the last couple of weeks, and really tired. I am really tired now too, I want a nap. Instead I am gonna grab a drink with my friend Richie, and enjoy the start of my weekend. Then I'll nap.

So here is what I found interesting this week on that crazy, wonderful, inspiring place we call the Internet:

♥ Super Kawaii Mama has a great new feature she is doing called Dear Weekend. I really like this idea, I am not real good at the making lists thing yet (must channel inner Virgo), but this makes it so much more fun!

♥ The Steampunk community is always coming up with new and crazier idea for how to look cool. Take this Guitar for example, or this awesome chicken mask deal, or these awesome goggles! Awesome...!

♥ I love tutorials! I just decided that this week, because of these tutorials. I finished the blue glow one, I can't wait to do the rest!

Gotta run!

Have a great weekend!

~Sydney

You

"There is only one person who could ever make you happy, and that person is you."

-David Burns, Intimate Connections






Picture by Warwick Goble

Saturday Happy Song

Hello!



How is every one's weekend going? I am cleaning up my apartment, it is such a mess. I am working on my desk, and the living room in general. But, I think it is going to take longer than I originally planned.



I had a magical night with The Man, and he inspired this video post. It's one of our love songs, by Hanoi Rocks. I know, it's an 80's hair band from Finland, but we like all kind of weird stuff. And this song will forever make me swoon! Eeeep!



So get out those legwarmers guys, and enjoy!



And Mr. Man, don't you ever leave me babe!

"I have a theory...

picture

...that the truth is never told during the nine-to-five hours.

I will have the Friday links up a little later today, I think, I am gonna go home and have a drink.

I have enjoyed a drink after work every night this week... I am a little stressed. So that is why I am doing this post now, lest I forget. Because if I do I will be all pissed at myself, and that is really counter productive to this whole loving myself thing I am working on.

4 years ago today, Hunter S. Thompson decided he was done with this plane of existence and ended his life. He died the way he lived, on his terms.

Hunter was a little bit crazy, a little bit gifted, and a huge lover of life. He did it all, just to see how it felt. He made no apologizes for the way he was. And although you may not agree with the way he lived, or the way he died (although I respect the man, I think suicide is a cop-out), it would be very worth while to take a look at the things he believed in. I can't begin to tell you how Hunter has shaped my way of thinking, the way I look at life, and the way I enjoy my time on this earth.

So I am going to go home and reflect for a few moments, on the greatness of Hunter. I am gonna light a candle, and raise my glass.
And so you can do the same, few links to look into:

Owl Farm Blog
Hunter's lovely wife Anita posted a beautiful poem by Mary Elizabeth Frye. My heart goes out to Anita today, I hope she is doing ok.

Totally Gonzo
Ron Mexico is a great guy, I have emailed back and forth with him a few times. I was had the honor of being picked winner of his photography contest for Hunter's birthday back in July.

And bonus a rockin article on the great life of this great man!


"No man is so foolish but he may sometimes give another good counsel, and no man so wise that he may not easily err if he takes no other counsel than his own. He that is taught only by himself has a fool for a master."

Rut. Stop. Step.

Picture by Jules

I have hit a snag in my Transformation, and if I have to be honest (and I have to be, because it almost makes me ill to lie.) I haven't made much progress in the last few days. I tried to help a friend sew up a homemade gift last night, and I am unsure of how my machine works so it took way longer than I thought. Then I had some errands, and before I knew it it was 11pm! I was beat, didn't give The Man the attention he craved, and didn't get anything productive done....

LAME!

It's lame, I feel lame, and that makes me lamer. I also haven't had a super great diet, or slept well, or been in a good mood. So it has all snowballed, way downhill.

I think I need a better work space.
Correction, I know I need a better work space.

My desk is cluttered, my apartment is cluttered, I can't get to anything. I am working on two very important projects that anywhere near organized enough, those are starting to go in good directions, and I feel out of control. The problem here is that I hate to clean. I very much hate to clean during the week, because I don't see the point in just cleaning the little things. If I did, my place would probably be cleaner! But I like to wait till the weekend, and do a big cleaning job. And if I don't feel like the big cleaning job, or it is a very busy weekend, then it doesn't get done. Then it piles up, then I get sad, then I am in the state I am writing to you from now!

Wow! Huge run on sentence there folks! Whew!

So how do I tackle this? I think the best plan (other than going back to, and sticking by my lists) is to decide on one thing to clean, then set aside one or two hours to clean it. So this is my new goal: to create a clean, organized, inspiring work space.

I would like to say by the end of the transformation challenge, but I'm not sure that is going to happen as the end is only like 11 days away. Yikes! And really I need to permanently change the way I do things so it sticks, I can't just do it this month. Also, it may take longer than 11 days (even though I have a big clean up planned for Saturday) because I am trying to downsize the number of possessions I have, and it is getting into sentimental territory. It may take a bit, but I am determined to get it done!

TAWANDA!!!!!

~Sydney

Friday Favorites...on Monday

Hi Guys, I am a few days behind....
The weekend was amazing, my Valentines Day was both fun and enlightening. And I will get to all that. Soon. My head has been spinning trying to get all my projects together. I am a Goddess in Progress you know!

Till then here are the Friday links I am 3 days behind on giving you!

♥ Dirty Comics for Valentines Day! ( Or Presidents Day as it were. Link not safe for work!)

♥ I have one of these at home I inherited from my older sister! I love spool knitters, even though I hardly made anything with mine...

♥ 15 bizarre statues! It makes me want to go see them all in person.

♥ Weird, crazy photos from the LIFE magazine photo data base. All on Cake Wrecks, one of the funnest blogs out there!

How is your transformation going? Still sticking with those New Years Resolutions?
I have slipped a little these past few days (although I danced yesterday). Then I saw this post from Gala, and it inspired me...and made me cry.

OK, guys I'll be back. More content coming as soon as I screw my head on, Hahaha.
Keep that head up and stay sparkly!

~Sydney