Sold Soul

Well, I am off to dance again. For a woman that drives me crazy. From an office that drives me crazy.

I did it again. Sold out for the almighty dollar. It's hard when the person you live with works very little due to his choice of career and you like to eat. It sucks when you have chosen to wing it as an artist and haven't the time or inclination to work on your art due to the bullshit of the day.

And that's why I have no other words right now. Except a big old apologie to myself, cause I suck.

I sold out. Again. Sorry.

But in the spirit of the blog, I am not homeless, still haven't been homeless in a long time. Last time I couch surfed was a long time ago, so...at least I got that going for me.

Whirlwhind Rain

So how bout this storm huh? Yowza, the city of Los Angeles has been drenched!
I like it though. I think rain is fun! It was more fun on Monday though, cause I got to spend the time with The Man. THAT is so much fun. I love my man plus rain, and Monday it poured! We went out to Target, the new one in the revamped Fox Hills Mall that they are calling Whitfield Culver City now. After pulling out 9 pairs of pants and trying them on for...wheat seemed like forever, I found one pair that fit and are flattering. One. And the bright green top I am currently wearing. I would post pictures...but I am at my new temp job and don't want to. So there. Neah.

In other news, I have a new temp job. Just as boring (actually, more so) than the last one, I am trying to keep it and save some damn money...
So I guess I better get off the Internet, as everyone just walked in....

Happy New Year!

How was your 2009? Are you sad to see it go? Happy it's finally over? Whichever it is, I bet you'll never forget it, changed lives this year did. Lol, how very Yoda...

This was a huge year for me, my only wish being that I worked harder to record some of it. But, i am doing this whole fly by the seat of my pants thing...and it hasn't been all bad. I am absorbing, and experiencing life as it happens. I have nothing to prove, and only myself to please in this little spot, so...I guess it's just another punch I will choose to roll with.

That is part of a whole list of things I have learned this year, that you need to roll with the punches. Life is gonna throw all kinds of stuff your way, and staying positive and letting most of it roll off your back helps tons. The Man called this a rebuilding year, and I have to agree. I rebuilt, I looked inside myself, and changed the way I look at the world. I grew up a lot.

I have lost two jobs this year, and for the five years before that I was not without gainful employment for a second. For five years I had a job to go to every day of my life, I had someplace I reported, and turned off my own head to sell dog sweaters, ship digibeats or file paper work. Not having to do that was, scary, fun, a...relief. I have been blessed with a chance to look at myself, and the person I want to be. I have found myself at the precipice, and am going with the less safe, but more personally rewarding path. I have big plans for 2010, that all revolve not going back to a room lit with fluorescent bulbs. I want to make up my own day.

I have thought about this a lot, and slowly set wheels in motion. All in my own good time. And well, I am ready to go out on some bigger limbs now. I have talked, talked, talked about all the things I am gonna do, and none of it comes to fruition. So this year, I am just diving in.

Eeeep!

2009 was hard. America changed forever as it sunk into deeper depression, and people re-thought the way they look at money, jobs, and lifestyles. And in the circle of friends I have, I have not heard many complaints. Most of the people I know were worse of financially, but came together as friends, allies, and support teams. I have not once felt alone, and I think that says a lot about the way things will go in the future.

We have all been humbled this year, and I think it has been great. I am so thankful for the people in my life, no matter what their outlook on 2009 is, because it taught me something.

I look forward to going out tonight and watching Travis Pastrana jump into Long Beach Harbor, drinking in a room we rented for the occasion (in true recession style, splitting the bill with good friends, and bringing our own booze!), watching the fireworks and kissing The Man at midnight. I look forward to 2010, and welcome all the new ways I will grow.

So, what are you doing tonight? What do you look forward to in the fresh, new year ahead of you?

And furthermore my self-control I can't rely on anymore...

So the discovery of, followed by the obsession with Led Zeppelin birthed an obsession with Robert Plant, that went so deep I began to dream about him. It reached a fevered pitch so high, I dreamt he made me peanut butter fudge...*sigh*...Robert take me away!

I was listening to his album Now And Zen, and realized I really love Crazy Ship of Fools. So, I went in search of a video to share with you. This is the official one credited as being "from the Nine Lives box set". Wow, did I come across a gem! This video is so the epitome of what cheesy 1980's love songs should look like! I love it so much! He dances with silk scarves! He practically makes out with the camera! Look at his stacked hair! Eeeeeek! I sat in front of the computer and creamed my jeans. God I love Robert Plant.

Link

The page-a-day

"Set your own priorities; live life the way you want to, with your own set of values. Stop running around simply because you have to "keep up". "

Yesterdays page from the Don't Sweat the Small Stuff calendar.

Daze for your Holly

(<---The inside of one of the lovely cinnamon rolls The Man baked on Thanksgiving morning)

So, I guess I am getting to this thing about once a month. Except I missed November completely....and that makes me sad, cause I like November. It has Thanksgiving and I decided this year that I really like Thanksgiving.

In comparison it's a really fricken easy holiday. There is little pressure if you tune out your family and drink enough. I had a damn fine Thanksgiving this year. The food is always good too, so the only trouble is making it. Which is not really a problem for me, I just was thrown off by how to time it all. We smoked, and drank, and watched Bubble Boy. I was thoroughly spoiled by having a full kitchen (albeit apartment sized, but still so much bigger than the last one) and getting to cook dinner, it was so...RAD!

I also started this here blog last November, so I missed my blog birthday too. Oops. I guess I was pre-occupied with trying to keep a job that I didn't fit into. I was in a really hard spot this time last year, and this little writing spot has helped heaps.

So we are coming to the end of the year, and as always I am freaking out about all the stuff I didn't get done and how I feel panicked that my life is going nowhere, and I am gonna turn into a fat old cat lady. With just one more month till my birthday, and it being another birthday that takes me closer to 30, I am a little...anxious.

Giddy up chocolate chip!

Wow I have lived decadently as of late, it has been bliss. I am really bored and uninspired in the world of the written word too, and, am beginning to wonder if Tallulah was right...leave the journal keeping to the good girls.
Gosh life has been good though. I mean, I still have a boring desk job, and need a little more time to be creative. But, I have learned you kinda have to force those things. You really have to do those things. Just with the little bit I have been making myself dance every day has done wonders for my self-esteem.

I love dance. Dance makes me so happy. I did a different belly dance video last week, and it was very inspiring. I don't work them every day, I take some of the things they taught and then drill them throughout the day. I am really weak right now, and very lazy/tired/gluttonous. SO....I am working at my own pace ok! Get off my back man, geeze.

The Man and I are loving the new place, I will post pics soon. But to be perfectly honest, I am not super happy with blogger's picture posting options...and that frustrates me. So, no picture till I figure that out.

And now I need sleep, since I have smoked myself retarded again.

Peace out.