2AM french toast after coitus. 

Luxury. ♥

"The purpose of art is washing the dust of daily life off our souls."
~Pablo Picasso

Hey!
That last post was post 1,000! Whoot! Not bad for a blog about life rants, pictures and quotes. Haha

We finally got a decent manager in here, she was cool.

As of this morning, she's gone...we're hoping she quit and was not fired, but no one will say.

Bummer.

There's been a lot of bummers lately. Gotta re-think shit, gotta do some new stuff, make things fresh...without money, or people paying for their damn purchases on eBay (second time in a row, on the same damn item!)

Time to stir the pot!

"There are people who have money and people who are rich."
~Coco Chanel

HEY!! ASSHOLES OF THE WORLD! PAY FOR YOUR FUCKING EBAY PURCHASES!

YOU ARE FUCKING OVER MY LIFE! I AM SELLING MY STUFF CAUSE I NEED MONEY, I'M NOT DOING THIS FOR MY FUCKING HEALTH!!!!

A crust eaten in peace is better than a banquet partaken in anxiety.
~Aesop

Oy...wednesday morning...

I guess I need more coffee...I actually need more sleep...

But, they FINALLY installed our new dishwasher yesterday after 3 weeks of doing the dishes by hand and I am SO grateful and happy and relieved! I didn't realize how spoiled I was until we didn't have one. Now I just need the vacuum fixed and I'll be back in business. 

I had a nice weekend.

I really like my boyfriend.

Some people go out of their way to piss all over your happy spot...
Sad.
Those are sad pathetic people.

Didn't manage to get to either class last night and only managed about 10mins of practice...
Did get through 1 hour of practice tonight and most of the dishes on the sink (the dishwasher is broken...)! Whoot!
Productive night!
2 productive nights, got the bathroom clean last night, and most of the kitchen table so I could show the building super the dishwasher and bathroom mirror were broken, so, progress.

What a day...

Got sooooo drunk on Saturday night...spent too much money, killed too many brain cells...I was going to go dance tonight but I can't really afford it, and, Steve is sick...I need to go get some good ginger ale and check on him, I might not make it to class. We'll see. If not I just need to push through an hour of practice on my own, need to make that happen for sure.

"You might have suffered as a youngster because of communication struggles within your family. Even as an adult, you may still contend with issues around cultivating emotional connections with those you love. Although a current misunderstanding could stimulate a cascade of memories, you have a chance to elevate your self-esteem and let go of any old patterns that continue to hold you back. You can't change what has already happened, so focus on the future instead of replaying your past. Author Robert Green Ingersoll said, "Hope is the only bee that makes honey without flowers." "


Stupid horoscope continues to be scary accurate....


(Source)

I have gotten rid of SO MUCH STUFF in the last year. But, my boyfriend is now in 2 '80s bands and I am going to my second '90s party THIS YEAR on Saturday night and I can think of all this stuff I used to have that I could have worn to these things that I ditched.
AHAHAHA! You never need anything until you get rid of it. If I had kept all that stuff these bands and parties would not have happened. It's just the way things work out.

 

http://thatnightmare-syd.tumblr.com/post/144477255572/noisier-my-aesthetic-is-constantly-being-sleep

 

Remember being 16, and taking the bus to Hollywood with your sister and going to punk shows and getting elbowed in the face by other punk kids in the pit and dancing till you couldn't stand up and your clothes were drenched with sweat and hoping you'd meet someone cool that would give you a ride home so you wouldn't have to take the bus at 1am?

Me too...can we go back to that?

Dear Sydney,

You cannot, under any circumstances, visit the various and extremely tempting candy bowls in the office today. Or, tomorrow. Nor are you able to eat anything other than vegetables for dinner tonight. Last night's entire bag of Chicago Style popcorn for dinner fiasco was shameful, embarrassing and damaging. You're in your 30s girl, get a grip.

Sincerely, healthy Sydney trapped inside emotionally unstable eater Sydney

    

I've never been really great at being alone.
I like to think I could live alone, I fought for it at one point because my mother never lived alone and thought it taught you things you could not learn otherwise. But, I have found as I get older I don't really like even being alone very much. My imagination is far too overactive....

The building has creaked, audibly, much more regularly lately. It makes me paranoid about all the earthquake prep I've been too lazy to work on and I can't help picture myself trying to find a safe spot in this overfilled apartment with an anxious ancient cat while all the glass stuff hits the floor...