There it goes again

Wow, so, so much.

I moved!

I have a job!

I have inspiration!

I also got very sick, bought my first major appliance with The Man (eeeep!), made new friends, questioned friendships with others, grew up, digressed, lost my mind and found it.

Party time!

It's late, and I have to be up early to go to this job...which is so boring I know, but it has paid for the rent on a new and much larger place, and a fridge for said place (I have had ice cream from my own freezer in my own fridge for 3 nights in a row now, I am gonna get so fat! It's gonna rock!)

I hope all is well in the worlds of those that read my ramblings, there is so much to share...and now I really have to clip my nails so they will stop dragging on the bass strings and driving me to distraction while I pluck my way through TV commercials.

~Sydney

Happy Birthday Robert Plant!

I love, love, LOVE Led Zeppelin!
There was a whole block of their songs on KLOS on the way home in honor of Robert Plant's 61st birthday, it was awesome.
So now, all the best of a Robert Plant search, Happy Birthday Robert! Keep rockin'!

Time Suck

Photo by Stephan.Com


Wow, time has flown by!

This makes me nervous, they say it gets faster and faster the older you get...and lately it has warped by! They also say: "if you want to make God laugh, make a plan". Well, I am here to tell you it's true, she will laugh, and then fuck it all up for you. True story, it has happened my whole life. I think I just started to understand this though, and now am a little better prepared to use it to my advantage. Over the last few months I can very clearly see where this has happened, and...may be able to see it coming. Or at least have the back up plan more ready.

In Feb. I started to look for a new job, I had been with my former company for almost 2 years and it was not going well. I was bored, really bored. I was very closely watched (my work anyway) by the other girls in my department, so I didn't really ever have to think. If it wasn't right someone else was just gonna check it anyway, and half the time they just redid it themselves anyway...so what was the point of paying attention. Then I got really upset and panicked that I was wasting my life away in a dull office, and wasn't being creative, all because I have to pay rent. So labored on the quarter-life crisis. Then there was a pay cut in may '08, then another one in Nov. '08...and I wasn't making enough money to do anything nice, was just barely eating between paychecks. I wasn't going to move up because no one was very excited for me to train with them, even though I didn't want to be in billing and had only applied due to the 30% raise it offered over my last job. Well, nothing panned out. I decided it was better to stay where I was, even if the pay was crap, and work on my many projects (dance, guitar, bass, reading, handmade cards, boxes, and clothes) to try and do something I love for a living.

Then I was laid off. I mean within weeks of me giving up the job search. I was lost. I knew it was coming, but I didn't really believe it...cause I was told I was safe....or so they thought. The thing is the company is struggling, and had to cut people. The Man and I were freaked, but hopeful. He was out of work too, so although we were gonna spend a lot of time together (yay!), it was gonna be really tight on the money front (boo!).

So we went to Texas to visit a friend that was about to have a baby! And I blew all my savings on plane tickets, food, and things for the baby(I didn't have very much money saved...as I was broke the whole time I was there anyhow). I thought "they'll be unemployment money when I get home! Who cares if I'm broke, I'm having FUN!" And while that's all well and good, and my focus is usually to have fun...it sucks not to be able to eat. And the next few months were all about the hustle, even if it was for a few extra bucks. I had all kinds of time to do things, and it still didn't happen, as I was so distracted with my man, and my money situation. But boy have I had fun!

Then, as I restart my plans, with a fresh outlook, all newly inspired, with a new list of tasks...one of the temp agencies called, they had a job for me! Haha! Another plan out the window! God laughs again! So, I am writing to you from my desk, at a big corporate machine...bored. I took it, and will keep it because...I need the money. It's doesn't mean I will give up on my projects, dreams, or motivation...but I will be able to pay off my credit card this way, and that thing has so much interest it has to go! I am flushing money out the window every month on a card I didn't think I would have more than a year! EEEeeps!

The last 3 months have flown by! I have so many pictures that still have to be edited to post...and for some weird reason computer at home has been super slow (probably because I have so many photos to back up!), so progress is slow going. But, I will not give up. Have to up the ante now, and take on more than I am used to. I realize more of my planning faults now, and will update more often the way I do things. And, ajust to whatever hits me...as long as I keep going, I may one day out smart the Goddess in her constant laughing at me...but I doubt it.

~Sydney

Edited at 10:30pm to add: This is post #69, Holla!

New Hair

I know, I haven't been around. But there are big life changes taking place, I'll be back to tell you all about them! That and my internet is all wonky...so it doesn't always work.

Until all this is processed, please enjoy pictures of my new hair.

Mondays

Wow, the start of another week. It is amazing how fast it all goes by huh? I can't believe how fast it all goes, the days just flow into one another lately. It's not bad or good really, just is...startling.

The Man has a project coming up in about a week, and will have steady work for the rest of the year. I can't tell you how thrilled I am that he will have work, that the bills won't be such a worry. It has been really hard these last 2 months, both of us out of work. We have just barely scraped by each day, some days cause we didn't eat. And as much as that sucks, as hard as it has been, I have enjoyed every second. I spent each day, all day almost, with the man I love. A man I am so crazy about, that when it hit me he won't be here next week while I washed my hands in the bathroom I teared up! Tears! I came out of the bathroom and hugged him so tight, I'm gonna miss him being around. He was so flattered, he said "oh you really do love me!" of course I do silly. So very, very much.

So, now that I am done gushing, on to the wonderful, inspiring things taking up my mind space. I have a whole list of links that were supposed to be up on Friday, and photos, lots of stuff to talk about. I only have 45 minutes to do it in this post, so let's see how far I get!

Being so broke does amazing things to you, it has been a test of strength. I have learned so much! I am so thankful for food, I thank the goddess for each morsel that passes my lips. As a result I have become more creative in the kitchen (pictures soon), and am looking at a LOT of food porn. I have been craving everything on the planet it seems!

♥ Bakerella's pancakes make me drool...Want! Blueberries were on sale this week, so I may make these. They look SO worth it.

♥ Pioneer Women also made me drool this week. I am vegetarian, but there is a bunch of stuff on her 4th of July goodies list that made me salivate.

♥ As did Ezra Pound Cake, twice! I was gonna make these Cherry Fried Pies, but I had to save the cherries cause they were so pretty, I had to take pictures! Well, I have been very self-conscious about my photography for the last month...and a half...and the cherries sat, and sat, and then rotted and died and had to be thrown out. I think I am over the photography snag, I think I just have to make sure I don't care what other people think of me, cause I get hurt too easily that way...but the cherries still died, and so no pictures, no pie...for now.

♥ 4th of July weekend I was obsessed with Oreos, and Solstice weekend I was obsessed with Smores, it was total kismet that the folks at CakeSpy put the two together! Drool!
Yum!

And now I am all fooded out.

Here is a picture of a squashed bird on my street to change the subject:




I thought that dead birds were haunting me for awhile, I found them everywhere. I try to make sure to take a picture each time now, cause I'm gonna turn it into some freaky art exhibit.


♥ Awake at the Wheel is starting a great series on the health zapping side effects of blogging.

♥ Doe Deere is always a rainbow of amazing clothing choices, her bright way of dressing has inspired me lately to add more fantastic pieces to the way I dress. I used to dress in all kinds of fantastic things, I always loved to look as weird as possible. That changed in my early twenties, and I haven't thought about it till recently. Clothing really effects the way we feel, and the way we feel effects the way we act. So, you should dress in a manner that makes you feel good right? Well, what if the rest of the world doesn't like the way you dress? That can make it hard to want to look that way, and this creates all kinds of inner conflict. Here Ms. Deere talks about some of the things you can do to dress in your outlandish best and not let the masses get you down.

And that's all we have time for this post, I gotta go run around this great city of Angeles. Have a great day!

~Sydney

Cheap Eats

This was dinner one night last week, and it rocked.

It rocked hard.

The best part of course being I think it only cost about $1.25 for the meal! Score!



What you see pictured is Kraft Mac&Cheese (the 3 cheese flavor, which rocks), with fresh chopped garlic and pepper mixed into the sauce. Then chop some brocolli and throw that in, make some iced tea (tea bags, water, lemon) and your all set!

I did 2 cloves of garlic, and it was way overpowering. So, go with one.



Yum!

Goodbye Farrah!

Farrah Fawcett was laid to rest here in Los Angeles yesterday, after a service at Our Lady of Angeles church. The above photo currently has the highest rating of the week on my Flickr photo stream. I'm not sure why, the one next to it doesn't have the blurry blob on the left side...but whatever.

The Man and I went down there for a different project we're working on, and I snapped some quick pictures of the chaos on the street.



I am wasn't a big fan of Ms. Fawcett, she was a little before my time. But, she was an icon. Had a tough bout with cancer, and I hope the afterlife is kind to her. She was lovely, and will be missed by those that loved her. We left before the service was over, but saw it on the news last night. I thought it was touching that Ryan O'Neal went back for one last look at the casket before it drove away.

Love never dies.

~Sydney