Thursday, March 31, 2016
Sold a bunch of stuff on eBay! We can eat this week! Rent week is always the worst...so fucking broke.
I have dragged my feet about packing stuff, running out of packing materials, so I guess I 'll have to go buy some. I hate spending money on something I'm trying to get out of my house.
But the house! I mean, apartment!! It's a huge mess, it's all in a state of flux, it's amazing! Have gotten a bunch of stuff out of the house, more is going, I am inspired to get it all done by end of spring. Lots of spring cleaning. It's good. It's all over the place right now, but it's good. Besides, I think I'm buying a dress makers form and I need room. I think I need one, and I am probably going to start wth a cheap foam one and pad it till I get an idea of how useful it will be to me. To be 100% honest, part of me is getting it to work out belly dance costumes on it from things I currently have.
I have so much stuff and I don't even know what or where it all is. Most of what I am selling off is dad's extraneous stuff that is not for his show and not for keeping, but stuff that was supposed to fund his show and now I just need to get it out of my house and need additional food money cause I'm broke. And, ya know, need a dress makers form...I have gotten a big shelf for the kitchen though, and some boxes to store my current costume components in. I have never been sure of how I want to store things, so I don't buy stuff to store stuff in and it ends up all over the place. So, yeah, it's in the works. I'm excited. :)
I have dragged my feet about packing stuff, running out of packing materials, so I guess I 'll have to go buy some. I hate spending money on something I'm trying to get out of my house.
But the house! I mean, apartment!! It's a huge mess, it's all in a state of flux, it's amazing! Have gotten a bunch of stuff out of the house, more is going, I am inspired to get it all done by end of spring. Lots of spring cleaning. It's good. It's all over the place right now, but it's good. Besides, I think I'm buying a dress makers form and I need room. I think I need one, and I am probably going to start wth a cheap foam one and pad it till I get an idea of how useful it will be to me. To be 100% honest, part of me is getting it to work out belly dance costumes on it from things I currently have.
I have so much stuff and I don't even know what or where it all is. Most of what I am selling off is dad's extraneous stuff that is not for his show and not for keeping, but stuff that was supposed to fund his show and now I just need to get it out of my house and need additional food money cause I'm broke. And, ya know, need a dress makers form...I have gotten a big shelf for the kitchen though, and some boxes to store my current costume components in. I have never been sure of how I want to store things, so I don't buy stuff to store stuff in and it ends up all over the place. So, yeah, it's in the works. I'm excited. :)
Saturday, March 26, 2016
Friday, March 25, 2016
Soooo...completely dropped the 365 photo project around day 72 when I got busy doing make-up for my boyfriends show, then getting drunk and having too much fun dancing around dressed like Adam Ant to remember to post anything...then seriously dropped the ball after his birthday, and was totally over it by day 80. The race wore me out. That combined with some family drama, some work on a project I have been dragging my feet on (which ended up being a bit emotionally draining) and a healthy dose of exhaustion from work and taking odd days off, I couldn't keep up.
Besides, I was reaching.
I could not get inspired many days. I wanted this to be a much more creative project, I wanted it to be an opportunity to learn and get comfortable with my Canon camera ( I had no idea Instagram was a phone app used primarily with your phone camera...oops!), I normally was not inspired or too busy at work to remember to take a picture, so I would wait till the end of the day to photograph something and then I was not patient enough to set up the kind of image I wanted to covey, ect. ect.
I learned that it's hard to remember to take a picture every day. I am always observing and appreciating parts of the day, but it feels weird to take yourself out of the moment to photograph it. I really take far fewer pictures than I thought. I have had my phone for a while now, and it takes better pictures than any other phone before it, I just have always written off the camera on the phone.
This project made me takea step back and really look at what I want to accomplish. I wanted to both hone my photography skills, as well as work on my problem taking forever to post photos I have already taken. I think I made great strides in the latter. I just, burned out on inspiration.
I'll be back with a shorter one before the year is out. With better direction and planning.
Besides, I was reaching.
I could not get inspired many days. I wanted this to be a much more creative project, I wanted it to be an opportunity to learn and get comfortable with my Canon camera ( I had no idea Instagram was a phone app used primarily with your phone camera...oops!), I normally was not inspired or too busy at work to remember to take a picture, so I would wait till the end of the day to photograph something and then I was not patient enough to set up the kind of image I wanted to covey, ect. ect.
I learned that it's hard to remember to take a picture every day. I am always observing and appreciating parts of the day, but it feels weird to take yourself out of the moment to photograph it. I really take far fewer pictures than I thought. I have had my phone for a while now, and it takes better pictures than any other phone before it, I just have always written off the camera on the phone.
This project made me takea step back and really look at what I want to accomplish. I wanted to both hone my photography skills, as well as work on my problem taking forever to post photos I have already taken. I think I made great strides in the latter. I just, burned out on inspiration.
I'll be back with a shorter one before the year is out. With better direction and planning.
Thursday, March 24, 2016
Saturday, March 19, 2016
Friday, March 18, 2016
Thursday, March 17, 2016
Wednesday, March 16, 2016
Saturday, March 12, 2016
Wednesday, March 9, 2016
Tuesday, March 8, 2016
Monday, March 7, 2016
Saturday, March 5, 2016
Friday, March 4, 2016
Thursday, March 3, 2016
“There’s a poignancy to being with someone older,” she observed. “I
think there’s a greater appreciation of time and what you have together
and what’s important, and it can make the little things seem very small.
It puts a kind of sharp light mixed with a sort of diffused light on
something. I can’t say it any other way than there’s a poignancy to it,
and a heightened sense of time and the value of time.”
~Sarah Paulson on being in romantic relationships with people older than her. NY Times
~Sarah Paulson on being in romantic relationships with people older than her. NY Times
Wednesday, March 2, 2016
Sometimes I think about how little my co-workers care, and I wonder if there is anything they care about.
The woman I work with directly, is billing out some of the work she helped me with, she said she doesn't care if it's billed correctly, she'll just post it to bill...
When my boyfriend and I were fighting a lot over the summer and she found me crying about it one day, she told me to throw him out, she had to do that with her ex, her dog tore up the carpet in the house when she found a person she didn't know in the house doing drywall, she wants to get rid of the dog cause she's too much to take care of. What does she care about, other than her own happiness in the moment? She has no hobbies, she gossips and over mothers her sons...she likes to travel, she likes to go shopping. Is it wrong I find those things to be vapid if they are your sole hobbies? I have other co-workers that go home and drink and smoke pot. That's it.
I can't fight all the battles, and this woman won't let me help bill this job that's actually mine...so, I guess I'll wait till it's rejected and re-do it.
I know I am one of those that cares too much, I know I am one of those that does need to let go of some things, so I am not picking this battle. I guess these people have taught me how better to pick battles, how better to save my energy for things I do care about. But, you still have to give a small fuck about your day job right? And wouldn't you want to give a bigger fuck if it's all you do? Apathy run amok.
The woman I work with directly, is billing out some of the work she helped me with, she said she doesn't care if it's billed correctly, she'll just post it to bill...
When my boyfriend and I were fighting a lot over the summer and she found me crying about it one day, she told me to throw him out, she had to do that with her ex, her dog tore up the carpet in the house when she found a person she didn't know in the house doing drywall, she wants to get rid of the dog cause she's too much to take care of. What does she care about, other than her own happiness in the moment? She has no hobbies, she gossips and over mothers her sons...she likes to travel, she likes to go shopping. Is it wrong I find those things to be vapid if they are your sole hobbies? I have other co-workers that go home and drink and smoke pot. That's it.
I can't fight all the battles, and this woman won't let me help bill this job that's actually mine...so, I guess I'll wait till it's rejected and re-do it.
I know I am one of those that cares too much, I know I am one of those that does need to let go of some things, so I am not picking this battle. I guess these people have taught me how better to pick battles, how better to save my energy for things I do care about. But, you still have to give a small fuck about your day job right? And wouldn't you want to give a bigger fuck if it's all you do? Apathy run amok.
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